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I have failed…
I have failed to be a good person
I have failed as a human
I have failed as a brother
I have failed as a son
I have failed as a Muslim
I have failed as a friend
I have failed as a student….

SOmetimes I always think just wanna’ shoot my head, but it won’t solve the problem
God will put my soul straight away to hell….
And who knows by HIS grace i could get some help
but….how….??
Grace is not just coming from the sky…
I have to seek for it….and dunno’ how
I’m sick & tired of myself
Sick and tired, everytime I change to be better person…
In the end thing just force me to realize that i didn’t change a bit…
everything turn out bad…..and it eat me alive…

I’m sick, tired, bored, insane…..
The pain don’t stop
It’s like a never ending cycle

O Lord….by your grace…
Please God, by your almightyness and your graceful hand…
Is there a way…?
any light that I can seek ?

By thy name….
If it isn’t you who else should I seek for help…
You’re the only one who hold my soul….
In the name of your
I take refugee on YOU…

Please….don’t let me be a FAILURE